So excited to have this new blog space!  One of my big goals when I gave up the studio space was to make time to write, I'm up to my eyeballs right now prepping for my first 'At Home' Retreat!  I have planned a fabulous day of fun and creativity around a Christmas theme; and can't wait to share it all with 10 amazing ladies!

My morning has been all about food prep; something I love!  As the butternut squash roasts for tomorrow's soup, I thought I would take a minute to catch up with my blog.   Tomorrow is more than my first attempt to run a successful retreat here 'At Home'; tomorrow marks the 24th Anniversary of the day Ron and I welcomed our youngest into our lives!

I will never forget the morning I took the home pregnancy test; to rule out that I was pregnant, because that was impossible! LOL  The positive mark certainly wasn't what I was expecting, but I was happy...  being a mom was my life goal, I didn't spend a lot of time planning for careers, I wanted to have children, and be MOM.

Over the passed 28 years of being mom there have been a great deal of lessons!  I call them lessons now, at the time they were everything from heartbreak to panic attacks!  Some lessons I caught right away, others kept knocking me down until I got it right! The greatest lesson of all, and the hardest one for me; as the ultimate 'let me help you with that' mom; has been letting go - getting out of their way, and letting them take flight! 

It's excruciatingly painful to watch your child struggle but it's a powerful thing when you watch your child succeed! When you allow yourself to trust, not only them; but everything you have taught them, and see it flourish!  It doesn't always work out the way you envisioned; they don't always want the same thing you want for them... but when the answer is 'yes', when you ask yourself if they are happy... then that is what you take comfort in! 

A year ago on November 26th I made a deal with my beautiful baby that this would be the 'Year of Melissa'; that she would take the time to figure out who she was, what she wanted, and where she was going!  I made a deal with myself that I would be a resource only when she asked, and I would give her the room she needed to figure out what she wanted, not what I thought was best... what an incredible year, what an amazing and inspiring woman she has become!  You've come along way baby; and with no uncertainty this year I can say the answer is a resounding 'Yes', and I couldn't be more proud! 

Melissa isn't the only one who grew this year, as I took on a different approach to my relationship with her, and all my children; I also took on a different approach to myself!  It's kind of great not always being in control, having the freedom to not be responsible for every little thing, and focus on what makes me happy too! 

So tomorrow we celebrate the year of Melissa, the joy of spending time with friends, Christmas, being creative beings, and the opportunity to step off the treadmill of life and just be 'At Home'!

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