I Am...

I can hardly believe we are heading into week 6 at Namast'ay At Home!  It took me almost two years to open myself up to this idea I had for an open online community, I was filled with fear and anxiety about how I would be perceived, or judged, and so I held off.

In hindsight I know that it is all unfolding exactly as it should; and nothing happened until I was ready... not just with the necessary qualifications, but emotionally ready to risk putting myself out there!  I couldn't be happier with the connection and sharing that this community is bringing into my life! 

I am no longer burdened with fear about what people might negatively say in response to my work, I am stronger and more established in my own philosophies - I am walking the damn walk, and I am confident in what I have to offer... that's a lot of 'I Am'!

'I Am' is a powerful opening because what you put behind it defines you, in this moment! 

I am hungry, I am happy, I am sad, I am enough! I am...

Two small words that hold the power of transformation! 

In Sanskrit 'So Hum' is a wonderful mantra meditation - 'So' in Sanskrit it 'I Am'; 'Hum' translates to 'that' meaning all of creation, the one breathing us all - I Am That.  So Hum connects us to everything and ourselves!  This guided meditation link is a beautiful piece and I strongly encourage everyone to take 20 minutes today to sit with this!  Consider it your homework in preparation for this week's digging deeper self discovery! 

 

 



Meditation is a wonderful tool when you are looking to sort out what you have been told you are; as opposed to who you are.  There is so much emphasis put on finding your purpose, living your passion, blah blah blah!  How about just own your truth?  How about take the time to figure out who you are, stop running because someone has something you don't, or you're afraid you might miss out, how about you just be?

At least long enough to understand who you are!  It took me a very long time (40 years!) to stop trying to be perfect; a perfection that society had defined - not me!  To look around my life and realize that I had everything, and more than I needed to be happy; that designer fashion, more stuff, and less cellulose didn't make me happy!  Ok less cellulose could be happiness... maybe?

The wind in the poplar trees makes me happy.  Coffee on the deck with my husband makes me happy.  My dog at my feet makes me happy.  My children being happy makes me happy.  Summer thunder storms make me happy.  None of these things are offered on Amazon or Ebay, or come with payment plans... they just are, anytime I choose to acknowledge them!

So this week as we unroll out mats, nourish our bodies, and get creative; let's put some substance behind 'I Am'.  

This week's worksheet is designed to help you sort out what's yours, and what you carry because you think it's what you 'should'.  It is painful to realize you are chasing things and you're not even sure why; that your efforts don't really support your true desires... but it's never too late to change course, to let go or make space, it is completely within you; to honour yourself!

In 2015 I stood over my daughter's still body in a hospital bed on life support, absolutely nothing that I had worried about prior to that moment mattered, not one damned thing; and in that moment I realized that nothing I was striving for externally could ever fulfill me beyond what I already had in that moment! 'I am grateful' became my mantra; and I never looked back; no matter what else came, or went, I was whole and humbled!

When we accept ourselves, and embrace our imperfect, flawed and beautiful lives; everything else we set out to accomplish is possible!  It may work out exactly the way we envisioned with hard work and commitment; or it may go completely off course and send us somewhere even better; either way we are still whole, and we have more!

But first and foremost we need to complete the statement... I Am...